A little heart broken

So I did it.  I got up the nerve to tell Bella.  She cried saying "But I want to hold her."  (Bella was convinced it was a girl.)  I told her that one day, when we get to heaven, we can hold it.  (I wish I knew if it was a boy or girl so I could be more specific when speaking about it.  It feels so impersonal to call it "it.")  Needless to say, it broke my heart even more!  Lord, be our strength!!